New Year! New Start!

Well 2018 I can’t say you’ve been a pleasant year.

It started off so well then bit by bit my life has slowly fell apart.

My mental health has dragged me on a rollercoaster of highs and lows.

Over the summer I managed to start to feel like myself again, I felt happy at last.

However, happiness soon slammed on the brakes and heartbreak dropped me into darkness faster than an eagle swooping down for its prey.

Depression and heartache turned me into a person I didn’t recognise anymore. I lost myself.

Until recently I played the blame game, taking no responsibility for the way my life has fallen apart. I carried anger, hate and resentment around with me.

The truth is life simply doesn’t always work out the way you want it to. Bad things happen in everybody’s life, its not down to fate or luck or lifestyle or anything else, it’s just a fact of life.

I relied on somebody else for my happiness and so when that person left I couldn’t cope. I felt incomplete.

I have learnt and come to realise over the past few days that nobody else can make me happy. I have to make myself happy and that starts with knowing i don’t need anybody else to make me complete.

My goals for 2019 are to work hard on getting myself well again, to start loving myself, to forgive myself and others, to let go of my past and to create my own happiness.

I’m taking a new, fresh, positive outlook into 2019 and I am determined to make this a good year.

Happy New Year Everyone.